Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Summer is coming to an end ...

The last few days of worry-free days are coming to an end soon. Classes begin on thursday and I'm not looking forward to them. It certainly isn't that the classes are going to be boring or anything of the sort; completely the opposite. However, all this summer I've only had the last 5 days for myself. I've been actually relaxing by not thinking about class or work. It's been GREAT! Five days just doesn't seem enough, especially with all that has happened this short year. I reflected somewhat today about the words "live life to the fullest". What does that phrase really mean? Have I lived life to it's fullest lately? I think so. At least I believe I have made the most of what has been giving to me and have tried my best to recognize opportunities when they come around. The one area I have never really been good at is love. I don't mean love for friends or family. I mean as in relationships. It's hard for me to show my true feelings for another. I can't help it, it's something I need a LOT of help in. I've been lied to, manipulated and toyed with before; so my guard is completely up and then some most of the time. I know that a lot of people have gone through more than I have in that department and are much better off than me. I just don't know where the true root of my problem lies in. Who knows, maybe that special someone will warm my heart and break those bad habits once and for all. Summer is coming to an end, but a new begining is just about to start.

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