Saturday, August 05, 2006
So much thinking lately it’s a wonder that I still have my sanity. Even then, I wonder if I even do still have that. I had a lot of fun learning and coding that Spacealaga game. It’s far from finished and has some bugs to work out, but over all I’m satisfied with it. It served it’s purpose - got my mind occupied, applied the new language I’m still learning, taught me some hands on about game programming and got me a ticket in that Xbox 360 contest. Sometimes I wonder if I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing, if I’m choosing the right paths, should I be somewhere else at this point in my life, do I really want someone in my life right now, do I need someone? Ok, maybe I know the answer to that last one, or maybe I just think I do. One thing for sure is I miss my dad so much and feel I need him - I know he will always live through me in my heart and mind, for he made a huge impact in my life and left so many footprints all over the place. I have all the guidance I could ever need at my disposal - question is, am I choosing the right ones? I hope I am. I think I am. I feel I am. I don’t know if I am - and that’s what scares me.
written at 1:52 AM